Friday, June 24, 2005
Chapter32: As boring as drunk...
Went k box with my new friends at ritz on monday night after out work... quite happy down there... i think it's time to let those gals get closer to me cos i'm always quiet while working... had a nice time... i was quite drunk... since tt time i hurt myself with alchohol, i had been quite lousy handling alchohol... but i think i get abit improved... quite clear wat i'm doing... but the gals still wans to send me home... haiz... no pride... nvr had b4... hehe...the next day was still quite ok... onli abit stomachache.... but definitely boring.... dunno wat to do.... start msging one of the gals tt night... Evangeline.... nice name hor? i think tt will be my daughter's name... hehe... found tt this gal had alot of things similar to me... erm.... abit scary... maybe my father at malaysia got small wife then she his daughter... wat the hell... msging msging... untill she say i'm drunk... heh? i may have said something funny, but i didn't even touch any alcky leh...erm... i think i'm too bloody boring... I'm as boring as drunk.... hehe
2:18 PM

Monday, June 20, 2005
Chapter31: New Discovery in my Neighbourhood
Haha... found a internet kiosk near my neighbourhood in farrer park... so if i got the time to go for lunch, i have the time to write my bloggy... hehe... take care ya bloggy...
2:03 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005
Chapter30: His Song; Only...
My sky is so clear,
The transparent promise is just passing air...
You the one holding my hands,
But,
I can't really c ur smile clearly...
~
Is it becos a star had change it's heart,
All the dreams we had last time,
Had already been forgotten...
I can't breath properly recently,
Even my own shadow,
I will want to escape...
~
Baby, U r my only,
Two worlds had also been change,
Thinking of going back to the start,
Is not so easy as it's said...
Confirm,
U r my only,
Speaking to the phone,
By myself,
I love u,
I really love u...
Baby, I can never love u even abit more...
~
Is it becos a star had change it's heart,
All the dreams we had last time,
Had already been forgotten...
I can't breath properly recently,
Even my own shadow,
I will want to escape...
Escape...
~
Baby, U r my only,
Two worlds had also been change,
Thinking of going back to the start,
Is not so easy as it's said...
Confirm,
U r my only,
Speaking to the phone,
By myself,
I love u,
I really love u...
Baby, I can never love u even abit more...
Actually it's already passed the limits of love...
~
Baby, U r my only,
Two worlds had also been change,
Thinking of going back to the start,
Is not so easy as it's said...
Confirm,
U r my only,
Speaking to the phone,
By myself,
I love u,
I really love u...
Baby, I can never love u even abit more...
1:55 PM

Saturday, June 18, 2005
Chapter29: Lost of communication...
'Ur service, do not let u make outgoing calls. For assistance, pls call STARHUB at 1633 for customer care. Thank u...' This is wat i heard when i call home one morning when i'm using my handphone... Bloody hell... onli owe handphone bills for 2 months, n this is wat i get... outgoing gone... can't even msg... Shit starhub... wondering how many more month b4 my 2 year plan contract ends... can't find the paper tt i get when i apply this line... erm... thinking... eh... ya... y not i just call 1633 n ask... stupid... nvr think of tt...Now i'm owing starhub $220... haiz... finally someone comes n talk to me... she said it's oct 2003... erm... 4 more months to go... better not cut off the line... erm... eh? she said i didn't sign any contract with starhub... i just bought the sim card... shit... i didn't even know... n kanna bluff for nearly two years... but anyway... good... i can cancel my line anytime... hehe... sign up with singtel... a cheaper n better plan... hehe... then also can buy new hp... my target is lock on nokia 3230... hehe... good good.... as i calculate... i at least need $600 to fulfill this plan... n predicted end of juli i can get it... hehe...So... sorry guys... if u wanna contact me pls call my hp or 62955887, thank u...
6:31 PM

Chapter28: First Week... First Step...
Hey, i'm back today... quite sometime haven't write on my bloggy... sorry... ur owner is busy nowadays... somemore i live so far away... somemore my com going to spoiled... so.. paiseh la... hahaMy com kanna dunno wat virus... every half an hour i on will start to blink like hell... then rest for dunno how long on again then ok.... haiz... my sis say is virus... so going to format c soon... so call me come back to back up my files...Past few days is like hell to me... nothing to do... every morning wake up after 11... go brush teeth.... wash face... go out c ah peh play chess then go eat lunch, then come back c comic, then go out again... walk n walk, dunno go where... then tired liao go home c comic again... i go outside walk even slower than ah peh... haiz... to much time to waste.... finally found job... at ritz carlton's green house...Green House is the no.1 business restaurant in asia... hoho super high class place... work there standard very high.... tml start work... hope can do well there... this whole week is like i dunno when i'm awake n when i'm sleeping.... haiz... hope life will be better... this is my first step... a very small one... but indeed the first...
6:16 PM

Friday, June 10, 2005
Chapter27: My Song; Pharisien (Hypocrite)
Heureuse parlant dans front de toi,
mais,
lui de racontant autre comme torve toi es...
lui de un Pharisien
~
Sas'occuperrassasié!!
lui peut-être le une toi confier le sommital,
mais,
lui peut-être le une qui blesser toi sommital!!
~
lui toujours porters différent masque,
dans front de différent peuple...
lorsque làbas nécessitons flamé toi,
lui volonté viens à toi apprécier un petit mégère,
mais,
lorsque toi êtes dans viscérale merde,
lui volonté trouvez atermoiements ne à secourir toi...
~
Sas'occuperrassasié!!
lui peut-être le une toi confier le sommital,
mais,
lui peut-être le une qui blesser toi sommital!!
lui de un Pharisien!!!
12:36 PM

Chapter26: Operational Ready Date
Today, finally it's my day of ord... Operational Ready Date.... no need to go back camp anymore, no need everyday where the stupid camouflage shirt.... can start to have a normal life of a civilian... can dye hair, can wear accessories.... freedom more n more... shiok...but my busy life starting soon.... very soon... have to hold myself up n throw my emotions away...
11:52 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005
Chapter25: My Prayers III; Péché
Sin
Everybody are born with it
It's unforbbidable
As long we have good deeds
Sin will be forgotten
~
Destroying this World is also a Sin
That's why God didn't destroy it
With life there will be unlimited possibilities
Unlimited possibilities
~
Accidentally having a child
This is already an sinful act
But in the World we are living now
Without stable financial supports
The child won't survive
If insisted
May lead to even more unexpected problems
~
Oh God
What should this couple do?
Kill the baby?
Or get married?
Even with the stable financial support
Without love towards each other
Everything will be done for
~
Oh God
I hereby pray to you
Truthfully from the deepest corner of my heart
Wishing this couple a happy marriage
And this child
No matter gender
Live differently from parents
A meaningful life
~
Pouvoir.Dieu.Bénissons
2:58 PM

Chapter24: Letting go my hand...
When back camp today... i heard more versions of the problem from other ppl... finally they give me some face end the quarrel... but if i go dunno wat will happen again... i realli done my best.... tt's it.... clearance also sign finish, waiting to get my pink ic tml onli... i got half day off from my boss for helping so much these few days... good...went back home serve net... finalli saw 'j' online... wanted to contact her but alot of times also cannot find her... finalli found her today... so chat with her... she getting married next month, cos she's pregnant.... fuck!! wat the hell is this... i care for her so much n let my hand out in case she need any help... but y? she nvr ask for my help not even once, then suddenly say prenant wan to get married... argh!!!! i realli can't take it anymore....emotions.... totally not my fuck problem... but y i feel so hurt... cannot describe this pain again... wat can i do?!? i onli can let go my hand.... i onli can pray....
2:38 PM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Chapter23: I can't describe my pain
Finally it's time to ORD... normally ppl will be happy like hell.... 10 months ago when i just posted to khatib camp, n when i thinking of getting my pink ic during ord, i will smile untill my eyes cannot be seen.... haha damn happy... but things cannot be predicted completely in life... now.... today.... left 2 days... i went back camp.... recently i already felt the atmosphere within my own signaller group is getting worst.... today, a great conflict between my friend kok hong n our new female sgt ashley started...too complicated... the signaller group break into 2 groups... one is ashley's group with alot of ppl.... n kok hong's group with 3 ppl...sad.... none of them r wrong from my point of view... but is the way they talk... ppl tense to mind how ppl say things.... n if i can extend my ord then all the problems will be smoothen.... but i can't.... u know how i feel? just like the whole family breaked into pieces... but no one will appreciate wat i have done....
11:20 PM

Chapter22: My Prayers II; World of CHAOS
GOD
Why do you want to create this world?
Since you create
Why do you want this world to be in CHAOS?
~
CHAOS
Country against country
War every now and then
Man against man
Murder cases everyday
Selfish
Violent
Sexual desires
Hatred
Greediness
I can feel all this now in my body
Trying to take over me
You
Created us
Why!?
Shouldn't you destroy this World?!?
Are you a GOD or EVIL!?!?
~
EVIL
Are you the creator or is it GOD?
If you are
Shall I obey you?
I don't know
But definately not now
Cause
I can see LOVE in this world
~
LOVE
This is the last hope
Only thing that can neutralise EVIL
But
Not everybody can find this
Where is it?
Find it yourself
If everybody have LOVE
The World of CHAOS
Will have an end
~
I think
That's the reason why the World is not destroyed
10:21 PM

Chapter21: First Love, True Love
One night... dunno when.... haha long time nvr blog liao.... i think is yesterday... raining heavily... super big rain... i know her, my last ex gf, when to bugis n meet her friend then she's on the way back... i was messaging her on the hp... ask her... 'did u bring umbrella? need me to bring u the umbrella to the mrt station?' she say no need... i think it's fine for caring her like tt... but my friend said... 'do u still love her? i think u can't forget her....' bloody hell.... how the f*** can i forget her? she's acting a close character in my life now... dun think when i'm old i will forget her also.... talk cock... but i already didn't have much urge to be with her anymore... or should i say i will nvr go back to her... but i still have the care for her... this is the true me i think...nothing to do, n can't fall asleep... i start to think back everything i did with all my ex gf, n the person tt i love alot but i can't be with them... i think hurting me the most n the one i like most is the one in primary 6.... thinking back it maybe just a crush... i totally forget her looks already... just the feelings... the sweetness when she smile, the urge of seeing her, still so fresh... this feelings is in my heart for almost 8 years to 9 years... i dun remember the looks but i still miss her... just like a true love... n i take it as the first love...
9:54 PM

Chapter20: Lies & Truth
In this world we r living now... there's alot of ppl telling a lie n the truth... but i learned... the lie u c my not be lie n the truth u c may not be true... somethings i saw with my own eyes also may not be the fact.... quite true... in this world, all, or shall i say, most, ppl have a line tt no one can pass through... the trust the person have for another person won't cross the line no matter who or wat... of cos the r exceptions...An example for the lie n truth.... i seen 'a' n i know him for almost a year... i know him i could say quite well, not too bad, of cos he got his bad points,but not too bad... but i heard another person,'b',says, a's bad n he's a bastard... who should i believe? stuck in the middle.... either one maybe right... i can choose to believe myself, or to believe 'b'...tt's an example... i can also choose to analyse the 2 person's character but untill the end... i maybe still wrong... haha just becos of the line in everybody's heart tt will make them wear masks n make the world so complicated... onli one way to find out the truth.... is when the real trouble comes...
9:32 PM

Chapter19: Once in a blue moon...
Haiz.... quite a few days i haven't been writting this blog.... lazy n busy.... go back camp everyday this week except monday... a real count down now.... 3,2,1... Suddenly got alot of things in my mind...Happened quite alot of things this few days... Dunno how many chapters going to write... if felt boring then u may skip.... thank u....=>Erm, i think i will be having lesser time to write blog... cos i'm not going to live here anymore... moving to farrer park myself... so, it will be once in a blue moon i'm writting this... probably once a week or even lesser.... Sorry my bloggy....='<
9:25 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005
Chapter18: Old Friend...
Yesterday is a bad day... went back camp... do work do untill i'm really very tired... luckily it's friday, if not will be very tired... went out with friends for awhile, n take something home... at night i went rush to my another friend's house to live there for a night.... his name is yamamoto akio... my bmt friend... meet him had dinner then went to his house... invited me to check out some of the photo tt he took in gifu,japan... nice photo... haha his sister getting more n more beautiful... perhaps should call him to introduce to me the next time she comes singapore... then i check out his computer, n chatting with him the things we been through ourselves the few months... haven't been contacting for almost half a year... after awhile i think he get bored... then i used his com to log in to my email account... got a game named 'Crimson Room'... a stupid game... let him play, n tell him onli got 4000 people can complete this game,i'm one of them... haha his quite excited n try to complete... dunno how long he use but still cannot complete... i already give him quite alot of clue,so he won't waste time on unneccesory things... but.. i think i gave too much clue to him, so he completed the game faster than i tot... haha,nvm... found another expanded version of the game... veridian room... i also nvr complete b4... so we played together... we slept around 3 to 4 am... he woke up first... already 11 o'clock... cos these few days haven't been sleeping well so felt damn tired... talk cock again, then around 3 o'clock he let me one show,battle royale 2... the idea of the show is abit outrageous, but basically it's a nice show... really quite enjoyed.. he told me he's going to bankok when he ord, hope we can stay in contact... good luck akio!!
5:39 PM
