Friday, January 27, 2006
Chapter150: The Burden of Love...
I notice there's 2 type... 1st is when u had some one u love... but when he/she got some problems, n u have ways to help but he/she just dun want ur help... u just can't force... not tt u can't do anything it's tt he/she dun let u do anything... very fuck up....
2nd is u got some things in ur life very important for u to do n u have someone u love... but the someone u love often makes u lose concentration... love becomes a burden... these kind of things normally happen... haiz... n i indeed experienced both...
5:32 PM

Thursday, January 26, 2006
Chapter149: My Sassy Girl
Nowadays so busy at rosette n always take mc... haiz... no money liao... but quite happy... becos of her...
Eve
Haha... she very fierce de... love her... erm... nothing much to say la... she's just very important to me... keke...
4:43 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006
Chapter148: Tomorrow
Tml... i going to work... maybe will send her home if she got work at night... miss her... she's so important... tml dunno which position i will take for rosette... scare scare... then tml must remember to drink lots n lots of water... then tml must remember to give back da jie's money... owe very long le... 20 bucks... then rest more... then tml morning have to do lots of stratching... long time no do le... all the muscle all hard liao... erm... time to move on again... thanx gal... thanx for supporting me... i remember ur words... tt let me move on again...
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"Y care so much?
No matter how tough the route in front is,
We shall walk it through together..."
5:21 PM

Friday, January 20, 2006
Chapter147: STM(Short Term Memory)
Recently found tt alot of ppl around me got STM(Short Term Memory) The champion is..... My mum... very horrible... always forget things de... Then second is her... anyhow put my ring... untill tot lost... haiz... let her c my comic till she dunno wat the last chapter toking... haiz... but i guess STM will spread de... i kanna oso... haiz... issit becos i too tired? or issit becos i'm sick? dunno la... very forgetfull.... think i need to rest more...
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I miss u so much dear... i trust u, as the same u trust me... i'm getting childish nowadays... dun wan to go work, dun wan to move.... spend money like water... but i know this won't last long... i will find a way out of this... trust me... first time in my life i felt tt i can't be better than another person... n tt person is u... i know i can nvr be better than u in tt ways... which make me even useless... but i have to hold myself again... to rush back to the top n be elite in other areas... instead... u can be my eyes... ur dark eyes...
Seriously... Sincerely... I love you...
4:27 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006
Chapter146: Hell in Rosette
Today is 23 of January... Had been around 2 weeks haven't blog... not i dun wan is when i have time the lan shop nvr open... n most of the time i'm busy... so my blog date will be back to 16 of January...
It's the first day i move to Rosette to do my event catering... from today till end of ec attachment (payless), i will be stuck at rosette... 7 weeks straight... dunno y so sway... heard it's pretty tough here... n indeed, it's quite tough... a very squeeze n hot place... total 7 positions... Saucer, Potagee, Entremeteer, Griller, Garde manger, Staff mealer, Aboyer... very chim hor? erm... let me explain...
I'm Saucer, making of sauce... all main cos have their sauce, so i have to cook n put the sauce... sounds easy? indeed pretty easy compare to others... i learn 2 days with my upper study verna then i'm alone... teaching rayfeal... so easy... but i fall sick, i guess it's dehydration... the kitchen is damn fucking hot... took 2 days mc...
Then Potagee, erm think i spell wrong... pronounce as [PO-TA-JAY]... Potage means soup in french... tt means ppl tt make soup loh... also quite easy... but should be abit more difficult then saucer...
Then Entremeteer, [ON-TREE-MI-TEAR]... have to prepare starch n vege for a main course... quite troublesome...
Then Griller, cooking of main course main item... must be very familiar in the doneness of a product...
Then Garde manger, [GUARD-MAAN-JAY]... prepares cold dish in cold kitchen... tt means appetiser all by them...
Then Staff mealer, cooking for all the staff meals...
Then lastly, Aboyer... do plating for all dish... consider leader of the whole kitchen... very difficult task... hoho must be smart if not will sure kanna scold like hell one... haha...
All 7 stations r the stations tt a student can go to... so i plan one week take one station... but... haiz... the main control of the whole kitchen is the teacher... n tt's the person tt fuck ppl the most... very stressful n hot... these kind of stress to me is nothing much la... use to it when i work in industrial hotel... but i'm on service side with strong air-con... but inside kitchen is as hot as hell... in the end fall sick... haiz... still vomit outside rosette... haiz... sorry leh cleaner uncle....
4:05 PM

Friday, January 13, 2006
Chapter145: Bad day...
Heard tt today is a bad day... cos the 13th on friday... but every year it's ok leh... dunno y it's bad... but becos i have someone realli tt important tt's y i'm thinking this...
Yesterday is a special day for me... hehe nah... it's a secret... dun need to say... hehe... i found tt my instinct had eat into my heart... thinking ridiculous things, trusting someone at ridiculous speed... really not like me... haiz... now tt i msg her n she nvr reply... start anyhow think again... is she busy? is she angry? or wat happened?
The extreme end of darkness is light...
I had fell back to the light...
1:26 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Chapter144: Instinct
Suddenly remember a song call Shinshoku~Lose Control... By my favourite band, L`Arc~en~Ciel... a very noisy n havoc song... A part of the lyrics is "
I die then my instinct was born~~~" haha so funny... at first dunno wat the hell is tt... but now i understand already... I feel it... dunno issit real... i trust this special feeling... i trust her... i trust myself...
While i'm still happily drowning in tt feeling, problems start to surface... Erm... i'm won't give up... erm... my problem starts to come too... things i wanted to get a few weeks ago still didn't seems to improve... example like my ippt... wanted to run... not lazy then sick... ah di tt guy also lazy... cannot... once i fully recover then i going to run liao... then like return money... just lost another job, now no money how to return money? haiz... must think of alot of things... first must recover... then stop the laziness... erm... haiz...
1:18 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006
Chapter143: Business
I actually was learning alot of things from a mlm company call "Enyouth" recently... ya indeed learn alot but in a super short time... so the things go in my mind when i sleeping... basically didn't sleep... finally come to an end of this... but soon have to draw a mind map of wat i learn... haha suddenly become so hardworking hor...
The most difficult thing they teach there is call us not to use brain... sounds easy right? haha but most of my close friend should know... i'm a super thinker... call me not to use brain? siao... very difficult... n totally dun have the sence of security... tt's y i stop liao... n the ppl culture is damn fuck up there... although surface is good la... now i know... the power of money is so damn horrible...
Ever heard of the law of duplication? ok an example... if a piece of paper u can fold it 3,000,000 times, the paper can touch the moon... cos when u fold it once it become 2 paper, fold another time become 4... so on an so forth... another example will be mahjong... ppl who play b4 one should know... singapore ppl normally is play limit 5 tai... but some ppl play 20cent 40cent, some play 1 dollar 2 dollar or bigger la... not horrible yet... i ever count before... if ppl play no limit for 20cent 40cent, n a person get the highest possible tai, which is 48 tai(if i'm not wrong) a person can get at LEAST $84,442,493,013,196.80... erm... dunno how to call this... issit trillion? after billion i dunno how to call liao... 20cent 40cent leh... tt means this guy is the "zeng" then he open card onli change "flower" get all "flower" then get all "NSEW" "gang" n form a formation call "18 lou han" n win the game... if u kanna this then u should go play all the 4d, toto, lucky strike liao... super fucking good luck loh... tt's y in singapore no one play unlimit mahjong... can die one... i spend a night with my bro jer, counting all these... he down there laugh like hell... stupid... where got so lucky...
K back to mlm... they using a system similar to this... law of duplication... finding ppl to join... i all the way dun like mlm... becos if u r one of the last few member, then wat u earning? wat earn the most is the boss of the company... n they r not toking about 20 cent 40 cent... is hundreds to thousands over dollars... so... i dun like this... but it's interesting to know about this la... erm... wat i learn from them is basically system management of a company, duplicate to every member of the company... the powerful part n the lousy part... there's powerful part but the lousy part more la... haha think over n over again, putting myself as a boss a manager, a member of the company... tt's y now sick... haiz... stupid right? but i like leh... next time when i have the power to start a business, i will use... or maybe my bro my friends start i also can give advise la...
Think too much isn't it? so how can i throw away my brain? but becos of this tiredness... i think i did something wrong... this may cos my fall... erm... good to learn from failure... but must think of a way to save myself out of this shit... have to think again... feel like vomiting now... haiz...
5:28 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006
Chapter142: Learning
I'm learning alot of things... from the most complicated things to most simple things... from management n organisation of a country, a company, to how to talk cock with different kinds of ppl... very difficult man... trying to make use fully of my time.... but, my personal capital is running down liao... often, money n relationships give me problems... haiz... fall sick liao, but as usual no money to c doctor... so poor thing... haiz... how i wish i can rest... haiz... again as usual... forget to shit... haiz... but thinking n doing is 2 different type of things... for now, i think more first... cos wat i have now is really too little... time will come for me to move on... but i won't become like ppl always say NATO(No Action Think Only)... just waiting for something very important to come, one by one.... muahaha... time to go home shit le.... hehe...
2:15 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006
Chapter141: Reason, Success, New Year...
Ya it's a new year... been living in farrer park for more than half a year... recently found tt it's pretty cramp in the train.. y eh? i always take the 0730 or 0630's train to school depend i wanna have breakfast anot(actually is whether i can wake up anot... heehe) but actually i often take this train but recently then i found tt the train is damn full... funny hor... last time dun feel so... new year liao, ppl more garang in working... hehe...
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Erm... do u wanna be successful? eh wat u mean by successful? when u have someone u can be with tt u can really trust ur life on it? this is very far away from me... near to impossible ba... or u can earn alot of money tt u can basically no need to work for a few year to enjoy life n no need to worry how much money u will have? this one also very far from me... OR... u r good enough to fulfill ur dreams without worrying whether u have the ability anot, becos u know u have the ability... erm this one is nearer to me, but still a long way... as long as it's listed to be success, there's always "no worry" in the idea... cos with too much worries, human can't say they r truly successful... this is wat i tot... but how many ppl can be successful in no matter which situation?
The 3 example listed on top, having the ability to fulfill ur dream? for me is my career... will i have the talent to subpass every of my senior, teachers, friends n those legendary chef? dunno y, i got a feeling tt i can... just the 6th sense... seriously this is one of the most impossible thing to do... cos a chef must have a very strong standard of logical mind; as long u r call a chef, the standard should be almost equivilent to a architecturer or a computer engineer... i guess so.. n also a strong creative mind which this one can't be compared... in creative world i think sky is the limit... so... how can u be the best when u dunno how good it's possible?
Second, earning lots of money... u wanna earn lots of money, u have to work n save alot...u can't work too much, becos if u work too much u have no time to spend... n u can't save too much cos money currency in a singapore depreciate about 0.3% per year...( u c the laksa at food court, last time cheaper rite?) unless u migrate to poorer country if not u will always find ur savings very little... but will u give up ur homeland?
Last one... this is very personal... or should i say, everybody have about the same thinking... i dunno... for me, "NOONE CAN BE TRULY TRUSTED" no matter how well u understand a person, the person will change... even he/she didn't change but can u realli c through the real character of the person? i dun dare to say i can... so for me, this is the furthest thing tt i can achieve n this is the thing i wanted the most...
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I dreamt of u last night...
The happiness we shared...
The warmth when we touches each other...
I know this is wrong...
Worst mistake I may ever made,
But in my mind,
U were there...
I miss this smell of urs...
In my heart I know,
Noone can replace u...
How I wish I were him...
Two choices...
Left or right...
I chooses left...
So, my principle stays,
N I leave...
I didn't regret my choice till now...
Cos I know tt u r happy with him...
I'm even happier than u r...
U know?
Our relationship nvr change...
Just our distance,
Ur warmth,
My laughter,
Fades...
And the reason y I leave...
All for ur smile...
2:57 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Chapter140: A touch of fire; after touches of blades
Went school today for event catering... hehe i won't say i hate tt place la... even i get scoldings, i still will learn things there... not like industries... been learning how to cut alot of things last week... basically is just cut cut cut... but i getting faster n faster with my knife without injuring myself...(include i have enough sleep...)
Today i'm the one tt cook the dog meals!!!(staff meals la...) haha chicken rendang with long bean n some capcicorn... then with a deep fry potato... hehe so happy... first time touching the wok for my event catering... i c mdm rohaya move so fast with the wok n scoop, then i also try, end up spillage... keke then she teach again then i spill again... :p keke but it's fun loh... first time... using such a big wok... i think i can sit on top sia... very heavy... then when i lift the wok my hand kanna burn by the heat from the stove... fire off liao... but dunno y the heat still so strong... funny thing is, my hair nvr burn leh... then y so pain? very very funny... haha nvm la...
While packing the food i drop one box on the floor... half gone... bo bian, have to write my name on it... so today i eat very little loh... keke but still happy today... later go home wash clothes... wash till siao man... hehe but i'm still happy...
When we lie down,
I'm looking at u...
Ur eye lashes r so long,
Beauty came from the natural expression while u rest,
How I really wish time holds for tt moment...
Vyn
2:53 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Chapter139: Natural
A human's beauty... shouldn't be surprise... it's nature... no matter guy or gal... often... it's when they show their natural smile... tt's wat most designer looking for... n wat someone attracts me last time, it's her natural smile... true man... not onli last time la... now also... but all this is ma chiam like museum display... can c cannot touch... for me now... no matter who... friends, family, ppl i like, i would like to c their natural smile... feel inspired... in my heart... tt's nevertheless, an important thing... therefore... i will nvr force anything on others anymore... the love being showed by me last time nvr being appreciated... therefore again, i will change... being more selfish in loving ppl...
10:43 AM

Monday, January 02, 2006
Chapter138: Your Decision
"God let us have the decision to believe in him..." this is just a phrase tt i heard will exploring christians world... erm... if i were god i will do the same too...
Went chalet yesterday... sherry's... my 2nd ex gf... actually tot of going there show face onli... but... aiya... kanna request personally by her to stay there the whole night... k loh... give face la... so stay there play cards tok cock... then she quarrel with her bf... then how? she cry n cry... every time like tt... from the time i know her till now, she always cry... when she's with me tt time also... she damn fragile...
Then try to comfort her n the same time tell her the fact about her... then she ask me how... wat can she do... then i tell her loh... she old liao... 18 le... then i onli can give advice loh... i can nvr choose for her de la... since she tolerate her bf for so long le... if can think cannot tolerate then dun waste time loh... break loh... but if she think still can carry on then talk to him loh... anyway she's not totally right also wat...
Heard they all quarrel... then later c they all like normal liao... then ok loh... happy for her... time for me to go liao... another sleepless night... haiz... but... in life there r lots of choices... choose urself... u r the trigger... of cos... ppl's advice often came from another angle or they simply analyse for u... it's ur decision...
10:33 AM
